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Thursday, 30 November 2006

Soundtrack to my life:
I thought this was kind of cool, and i have time on my hands.
Directions:
{If your life was a movie, what would the soundtrack be? So, here's how it works:
1. Open your music library
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press Play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the Next button.
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.
7. Don't skip songs.
My Movie:

1)Opening credits: RX Queen (Deftones)

(2)Waking up: Nothing is Ever Enough (Derek Webb)

(3)First day at school: Twist and Shout (The Beatles)
(4)Fight song: Run to the End of the Highway (Keith Green)
(5)Breaking up: Somehow Someday (Ryan Adams) >How fitting

(6)Happiness: Walls and Tall Shadows (Waterdeep)

(7)Life's okay: Sunday Morning (Ani Difranco)
(8)Mental breakdown: Silver and Gold (U2)
(9)Driving: While my Guitar Gently Weeps (The Beatles)

(10)Flashback: Selah (The Frail Division)

(11)Getting back together: Desire (U2)

(12)Wedding: Anthony (Nickel Creek)

(13)Birth of a child: Another Travelin Song (Bright Eyes)
(14)Final battle: A Box full of Sharp Objects (The Used)

(15)Death scene: Carolina Rain (Ryan Adams)

(16)Funeral song: Stay (Alision Krouss and Union Station)

ok guys what's your soundtrack

Saturday, 04 November 2006

Currently Listening
Lucky Town
By Bruce Springsteen
Lucky Town
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It's strange really. how we all get caught up in this or that, and suddenly become convinced that this or that is what defines us and makes us happy. Whatever it is consumes our thoughts, we ponder the "what if's", dream about it, it becomes us, and we are ok with that. Part of me believes that this is beautiful, the sheer thought that we find fulfillment in something other than ourselves is wonderful, but sometimes i am convinced it goes to far.
and then heartbreak enters...
He lets you down, or she says goodbye, and your world comes to an end. you never saw it coming, but all of the sudden it's here, and it's inside of your soul. you've let it go so far, you trusted him and now he's gone, off somewhere else, but you're still here.
What you don't know is that i've been patiently waiting, for you to say "it was you all along." but the truth is it's not me. You are beautiful. You really are. I wish you could hear me say that right now. I wish you could hear those words roll of my lips and reach deep into you heart and provide some kind of safety for you. But for now know that you are not made or undone by what people think of you or feel about you and neither am I. You are beautiful, you are stunning, you are wonderful. How you carry yourself, how you throw a football, how you laugh and call me your made up names like "stringbean" or something of the like. Know that your happiness is important. Some would disagree but really it is. Find whatever it takes to be happy, and may I assure you that it is not just a person.

Wednesday, 25 October 2006

Currently Listening
This Is No Fairy Tale
By Frail Division
Selah
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Sometimes life's not pratical
Some battles there are no tactics for
Where all could meet deaths fiery sword
Selah
Don't hide your eyes
cause
The world will end but love and music will endure
The day when we're caught up we all will sing
Sometimes life's not obvious
And gifts that are free, are dangerous
The best things in life all come with rest
Selah
Just take a chance
cause
The world will end but love and music will endure
The day when were caught up we all will sing
I had you for myself the night
I took you for a moonlight ride
Across the fields, across the flames
Off we were like many men
A memory of what I was told:
"you find love and you don't let go"
but my will wasn't strong enough
so I let go of love...
The world will end but love and music will endure
The day when were caught up we all will see it.

the above is quickly developing as one of my favorite songs of all time

Wednesday, 27 September 2006

Currently Listening
Stop All The World Now
By Howie Day
She Says
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Romance...Everybody Rides a bike the same.

It's unexplainable in a way... At the most unexpected moment a rush comes over you that you perhaps never saw coming. It is as if you have seen the world through stained mirrors all your life. It's strange really, how beauty comes at you with an unrelenting force only to constantly occupy your thoughts. It's as if you've been inside for all the days of your life and you walk outside for the first time. The clean air rushes through your lungs, as the light nearly blinds you. but once your eyes focus beautiful colors of green, and blue decorate your world. Sunsets in all their beauty become pale in comparison to what you've found. Wine has lost its taste because you can no longer focus. You can n not sleep without reminiscing in your dreams.
And think just how ridiculous all of this is. You didn't ask for this, or even intend for such a thing to come over you. You resisted and fought it but yet it was unavoidable. You only did your job. Yet now you stand here, and wouldn't turn away if life beckoned you with such an opportunity. It is as if every one of your accidents were someone elses perfection.
and perhaps you've gone a little crazy. maybe beyond crazy, possibly but not likely. Perhaps even willing to live in your present state, perhaps forever, and it just so happens that your complacency with this craziness is what makes you crazy. But most likely not, or so you think and constantly tell yourself Nonetheless it is worthwhile; at least to you, no matter what anyone else tells you.
Though in reality life is now clouded with even more questions it seems as if it is clearer than it ever has been. beauty is unrelenting, and etched in character.
"I'm not infatuated," I tell him. "I just like the way she rides a bike."
How do you know how she rides a bike?" he asks.
Everybody rides a bike the same," I say

Wednesday, 30 August 2006

Currently Listening
Kid A
By Radiohead
How to Dissapear completely.
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Finally Freedom:

Last semester and throughout much of the summer, it felt as if i were in bondage. I felt further from God than i ever had before. The luster that once filled my sails had dwindled to a slow and unnoticeable breeze. It's not that i had done something wrong, perhaps it was something i hadn't done. I'm really not quite sure, but for almost half a year it seemed as if i was drowning in a pool with no water without a hope of coming back. Small groups and things were a bear, forcing myself to preach what i could not feel, forcing myself to act upon what I could not touch. There are few things closer to hell, than saying something you don't believe at the moment, but that you know is true. I spent much of my time trying to "get back to God." to draw near to him again. I tried everything, reading the scripture more, praying longer, serving the poor more, etc. To my surprise nothing that I did worked.

Then it changed... For those of you who don't know the last couple of weeks i've been visiting a house church that meets as a group on Sundays known as Central Arkansas Community Church. Something was mentioned that relieve me of all my efforts. In the midst of all the spoken words was one sentence: "God's not going to leave you." and that was it, everything i had tried was in vain, i had nothing to try and needed to try nothing. It's strange how we as humans can think we understand such basic principles and then prove by our actions that we understand much less than we think we do.

"Thinking can never be a substitute for living."